Internal Sunshine

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Post 9 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Eternal Sunshine.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

I am my own weather woman – no one can tell me my emotional forecast.

When it rains, I let it pour. Fuck it, I don’t want the umbrella.

I don’t avoid the rain anymore, I want to feel that shit.

But it’s crucial to remember to pivot after it’s felt and processed.

I refuse to linger in gray clouds longer than I have to.

I control my own weather.

I command my thoughts and emotions, not vice versa.

Circumstances remained basically the same, but a shift in mindset brought me to constant clear skies.

I choose whether I want to be the thunder, blue skies, rain, desert heat, tornado, rainbow, or all the above…

So why not choose to be the sunshine?

Realizing that I am the sun, moon, and stars all on my own brought me the peace I needed.

No outside source is required for my happiness.

How can you dim a light that comes from within?

All In

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Post 8 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “While We’re Young.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

“Wait and be patient,” I would tell myself.

Once upon a time, this was my manifest song.

This energy, or nothing at all.

Just when you think you’ve witnessed it all…

Don’t they say that’s how it always happens?

Yes – some hesitation, some fears initially.

But eventually, the green light goes off.

No rules, no second thoughts.

All gas, no breaks.

No forcing, no games.

Isn’t it crazy how it all just aligns?

No doubts, no holding back.

This is how it should be – all in.

Little Miss Self-Sabotage

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Post 7 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Define Me.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

Note to self –

There will come a day where you meet the reason why you never settled.

When that day comes, I pray you have the self-awareness to realize when you’re starting to run.

I pray you have the discernment to know the difference between a gut feeling and the natural instinct to self-sabotage when things are great.

I hurt a little inside knowing that you are weary of good things because it is so foreign to you.

But embrace what is being presented to you – don’t run from things that seem too good to be true.

You deserve the world, let the world give it to you.

And when you get the slightest inkling to detach in fear, I hope you remember to move with trust and love.

Just In Case

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Post 6 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Pretty Bird.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

I’ve been taught to always plan for rainy days – life is unpredictable.

Mentally exhaust all possibilities to prepare for the unexpected.

Life can’t pull a fast one on you if you’re 100 steps ahead.

I need to make sure that at the end of any possibility, I remain untouched, unbothered, victorious.

Some call it smart, others call it overthinking, I call it Me.

“Just in case,” I tell myself, creating an exit plan before I even enter – completely unaware that I’m speaking doubt into my reality.

But fuck that. I don’t want to be held prisoner to that way of thinking.

I want to shift my focus to just in case it all happens in my favor.

Just in case it goes even better than expected.

Just in case I get exactly what I wanted and then some.

Just in case you tend to forget too – It always works out.

No Accidents

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Post 5 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Limbo Limbo Limbo.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

I am exactly where I’m supposed to be.

Everything is calculated down to each second.

There’s no such thing as right place, wrong time.

Believe that some things were just never meant to happen.

I’m a firm believer that there are no accidents.

Each moment is strung together for a bigger purpose.

If everything is meant to be, there is no such thing as wasted time.

I used to mourn lost time, wasted time, too much time.

But everything is connected, there are no coincidences.

You will never be too early or too late for what’s yours.

Right place. Right time. No wasted time.

This Is Personal

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Post 4 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Lotus – Intro.”

This transformation is personal. But don’t get it twisted –

I have nothing to prove to anyone, but everything to prove to myself.

My happiness acts as the biggest apology that I owe myself.

They say good girls finish last, but I beg to differ.

Pure hearts, pure intentions, and love is still where it’s at.

I refuse to water a dead plant, so I chose to water myself instead.

A flower blooms on its own time, and now it’s my season.

She’s motivated by the woman she once was.

So yes, it’s very personal – she chose herself.

This blooming garden is for me – I’m sorry it took so long.

Free

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Post 3 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Speak.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

Airplane views

Learning to be unapologetically free in every sense: Mind. Body. Soul.

Free from all the expectations I once put on myself.

I am allowed to change directions whenever I please.

Free from the need to explain myself to others.

My heart and intentions are pure, I know my truth.

Free from the anxiety of what others may think of my art.

I don’t care if I’m cringe on the internet- fuck with it, or don’t.

Free from trying to fit a certain beauty standard.

Looks are only skin deep, I am truly 1 of 1.

Free from limiting beliefs that no longer serve.

That person isn’t me anymore, I will not get in the way of myself.

Free from settling for the bare minimum in all aspects of my life.

I deserve it all, and I will have it all.

How satisfying it is to be free to live, speak, and bask in my truth.

Forced Transformation

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Post 2 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “Born Tired.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era. She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to self✨️

Cherry Blossoms starting to bloom in San Francisco.

They say the universe will intervene if you remain stagnant.

But the cosmos are patient and understanding too – they always give us the free will to redeem ourselves.

Evolve or repeat – learn the lesson and grow, or repeat the same cycle in different forms until you get it right.

Avoid what needs to be done, and watch the universe pull the rug from right under you. Time’s up.

You have no business being in places, situations, and connections that don’t serve your highest good.

My Tower moments always came at the right time.

This was a forced transformation.

Thank you, universe, for giving me no choice but to get the ball rolling.

Nobody talks about how overwhelming and exhausting it is to be cracked open.

But once the light gets in, there really is no going back.

What a rewarding, yet chaotic, journey it has been so far.

I’m learning to not question what the universe has in store for me.

There are no accidents. Now, this is all by choice. I have to keep going.

I Am The Key

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Post 1 of 10 of LoveYourzStory’s Jhené Aiko Series. Inspired by “W.A.Y.S.”

I’m deep in my Jhené Era, bitchhh!! She’s def the top artist I’ve been listening to on repeat for at least the last 6 months. This series will be a showcase of how her music has inspired me throughout this journey – the journey back to selfffff ✨️

Land’s End, San Francisco

I used to wait patiently in front of doors to open.

I didn’t mind the wait if it was a door I wanted… or thought I wanted.

But patience doesn’t last forever, for I am only human.

So, I would build up courage to cowardly knock on the door.

Silence. Access denied. So, I’d waited some more.

Patiently waiting always escalated.

From sheepishly attempting to open the door, to forcefully knocking and yelling, to shamelessly trying to trespass out of frustration.

If I want something, I give my all. I always find a way in.

But what I’ve found was this:

I can’t force myself into rooms that are not meant for me.

I should never have to force a door to open.

Closed doors are redirection, embrace it with open arms.

Sometimes the doors we want are closed for a reason.

Trust that there are always bigger and better possibilities than what we think we want.

I will always be able to walk through doors that are meant for me.

I am the key.

Like The Moon

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I’ll forever be entranced by the moon’s beauty.

How mighty her gravitational pull is for everything and everyone on earth.

We don’t question the moon’s many phases.

In fact, we celebrate them. We study them.

Her cycle pushes and pulls the energies.

They close old doors and welcome new beginnings.

She has taken many hits, leaving craters that can be seen from miles away.

But still, she is delicate yet potent.

Oh, to be loved like the moon…

Accepted through all my many stages and cycles.

But more importantly…

To love myself like I love the moon.

She can’t be full at all times, but we know her power.

The moon’s energy is still present, even at her lowest.

She’s picture perfect in every stage.

That is my wish for you – accept yourself in every stage of the journey.

Give yourself grace and see yourself like you see the moon.